One day i'll tell my son, "I made these mistakes so you wont have to" then ill think of every tear that lead to the moment i met his mother
Its never been more evident how much more is expected of me than what ive been giving. Some of us have a greater calling on our lives
My greatest prayer is that God gives me more than direction but the strength and fearlessness to move boldly in that direction as a man
Dij in a weird way has paralleled many of my experiences, even my heartbreaks are familiar to her, its rare.
I'm sorry for my long rant i hope everyone can understand my sentiments. But im in love @Arcia_Marie
and she deserved this much atleast
In gaining everything I lost the one person that brought me peace.
You don't realize how much peace someone brings until you lose them
I don't just lay in the bed i make, I lay down 1200 thread count Egyptian cotton sheets, plush linen & satin pillowcases for my doobie
You know what you do when you make a bed right Avery? You lay in it, but thats my problem, i find myself getting to comfortable in mess
Its crazy when i think of all this all i can think is i have nothing to lose because i lost everything. But we take the good with the bad
I lost my soul and my integrity over women. It's clear what my weakness is, its evident. Had i not made such a mess i might be in Philly now
I turned my back on my family and neglected their love cause i just had to go get what was for me. When i shouldve had it already
I lost my soul tryna chase that of the world
Loving everybody in hopes they'd love you back is an exhausting job, it takes the very soul of a man when he has to pretend.
Instead of learning to love myself i mastered the art of loving others enough to receive the love i wasnt giving myself.
If I don't love myself enough, I'll outsource the job to as many applicants that can fill the position. I am the most qualified for the job
To the men of the world with hands like mine that break as well as the build:STOP, If U only break dont touch anything until U learn build
i shouldve been giving myself all along...
I have nothing to gain anymore but myself. I lost pretty much everything, i even turned my back on my family searching the world for a love
Making major declarations and minor changes. I've gotta put foot to pavement.
So I'll own it, all the lies, all the wrongs, everything its all mine... I cannot allow myself to be that man anymore. But ive gotta stop
I'm tired of being tired of this man. i dont wanna say much more ive already said to much but im not afraid to tell the truth anymore
The reality is everyone will be fine, everyone will have their peace when it comes, mine i have to go get and im prepared for that because
But if a man cant even be faithful to his God how can he be faithful to his woman?
Its best to practice being faithful to something before trying it with someone. It's sad and im ashamed at who ive allowed myself to be
Accept my flaws and learn to stop being a coward and face them instead of masking them with lies, I have practice what i preach
I need to fix myself, just me and my God because frankly no one else has what it takes & i shouldve realized that along time ago, I have to
I cant give love that i havent got for myself
anyone offering. I'll do anything to keep from having to deal with myself because i dont like me at all. but i dont love me enough to change
I am a compulsive liar and i have major insecurity issues. I have a fear of being alone, i never want to feel unwanted & seek validation in
making the same bad decisions again. I'm always trying to pretend like i have it together but i dont. I dont know how to control my temper
No one has deserved the heartbreak they received as a result of my actions, no one. It seems like just as i start to get it right i end up
manhood that I know i should. Without question i love @_deepdimples
more than i can think but i hurt you, and you didnt deserve that
Love. like there is no doubt in my mind that i love @Arcia_Marie
stokes something serious but i have not been able to uphold the level of
care abt, that includes @Arcia_Marie @_deepdimples
Nicole, Va, Nyah, even A-larenee.. It just sucks because i know for a fact how much i
I have not been the man that i know i should have been for years now. I have lied, manipulated, deceived, and hurt people that i genuinely
Listen carefully because this is only gonna be said once.
So Averys gonna be a big boy now, regardless of how overdue it is and say that @_deepdimples
you will always hold a place in my heart and
Now its your turn @Arcia_Marie
for starters i am sorry that i lied to you and manipulated you the way i did, i did not take very good care
I love you dearly & im sorry that things played out the way that they played out, i lied & i made a myriad of bad decisions @_deepdimples
If I can get over this I can get over anything.
Amazing new talent @AlyeaSpeaks
will appear at @RealFredHammond
concert Nov 1 at @FBCLG
. Light, truth and purpose spoken w/poise & power.
The agony of being alone....fear of doing things on my own..
I'm tired of being weak. I'm tired of being less than what I should be, im tired of living beneath my calling I'm tired I'm tired
Love ain't just this thing we get when we feel like it, when you have it, you don't make a mess AVERY!!!! You keep it and cherish it
I usually don't put myself out there like this but fck it.
What happened in the last hour will change my life. I'll Favorite this tweet to remind myself.
This is long overdue. But it's necessary